Truth’s shining light guides me in my choices and decisions; the revelation of your word makes my pathway clear. Psalm 119:105 (TPT)
Recently the three words for the title of this blog have drawn me to consider their connection with new understanding. I was praying with some friends when one saw in a revelation that God had put me on a new path and He was steadying my feet. The only light was a lamp that I was holding in my hand.
Many times, I have read and heard stories or testimonies of people at crossroads in their spiritual journey – a place of decision. But something was different.
After a long season in which the Lord has being doing a deep work within – beaten, crushed, pressed – it was like God had picked me up and transplanted me on a new path. I felt the Lord holding my feet, interestingly I was not moving. Here I was standing on a path with nothing but with an obedient heart willing to be a servant and move to the place the Lord was wanting to lead me. It was all new terrain.
The words of the song New Wine by Hillsong began to ring in my ears.
In the crushing
In the pressing
You are making
So I yield to You and to Your careful hand
When I trust You I don’t need to understand
Make me Your vessel
Make me an offering
Make me whatever You want me to be
I came here with nothing
But all You have given me
There is new power.
However, the Lord wasn’t bringing new wine out of me. The new power was the “outpouring of fresh oil”. It was accompanied by a picture of a stream, a stream with a sudden rapid flow (as of water). The beaten, crushed and pressed fresh oil I had been experiencing was being prepared for the Lord’s purpose. I then noticed something strange. When I had steadied myself and looked up all I saw was darkness. Immediately I was drawn back to the purpose of the oil as described in at the time of the Tabernacle as the children of Israel were wandering in the desert. ‘You shall command the people of Israel that they bring to you pure beaten olive oil for the light, that a lamp may regularly be set up to burn.’ Exodus 27:20; the LIGHT of the revelation of Himself. Was this a new commission He mandated? “The lamp is burning — now Christ can send me; others will find their way to God and that oil will help effectively heal others.”
I was taken aback and had to pause for a while. What my friend had revealed to me began to connect the pieces of revelations I had been receiving from the Lord since the time I had left full time ministry as a pastor.
As I tried to move forward, I was finding it difficult. It appeared the Lord was holding my feet, restraining me from moving forward on this new path. This path was different but then I noticed that many of the obstacles that had been there before had been removed and I was walking a straight path. This was strange for I had for a long time walked a path where I had to watch for obstacles. The new path lay before me and I sensed the Lord wanted me to take a moment and just gaze at what was before me, I felt the powerful hand of God guiding my feet.
In my hand was a lamp and I discovered that the light only shone immediately ahead of me. I could not see into the distance. I felt the nudge from the Lord saying, “the outpouring of fresh oil each day is required to keep my lamp burning. If you don’t come to me each day the fresh oil won’t rise from deep within and light the path for the next step.”
This is a true picture of our path through this world: we should not know the way, or how to walk Yet we are walkers and we are often called to go out into the world’s darkness. Let us never venture there without the light giving Word, lest we slip. It is a lamp by night, a light by day, and a delight at all times.
But in it all, with a constant smile on my face, I am grateful for the way that on reflection, His constant faithfulness proves that He is doing something far beyond what my mind could possibly imagine or comprehend.
And I now have a glimpse of the way He perfectly works all things together for good. This glimpse strengthens my inner being and lets my heart rest in my fortress, my refuge.